Challenges

"Face up to fear, challenges are huge blessings" --Dove Chocolate Wrapper

So.......

Life has been not so great latley, I am going through a rough patch in my life.. was not even going to talk about it on here but I am in need to vent and get it all out, plus I don't think alot of people actually read my blog so why not? I am not going to post this on facebook and tell the world, I just needed to get it all out on help explain whats going on to loved ones not over text..

So.... its a way long, complicated story so get ready! Ok so I have had a wierd thing going on with me for about 3 years now but had no idea anything was really wrong with me until about 3 months ago.. It turns out I have been having a form of a seizure called an absence siezure. It is not the on the ground, shaking, totally out type of seizure you are thinking about, this is where I just black out and loose consciousness for about 30 seconds with my head down, if I am standing up at the time I never actually fall down, I just put my head down and look at the floor and am non responsive for about 30 seconds, then I have a hard time speaking for about 2 mins after like I stutter over my own words, but then after that I am totally fine for the rest of the day. It is so wierd, I had no idea what I look like and what happens to me when I do it. It has always happened to me when I am alone until recently.  My sister Karisa saw me have one at Target back in October and she told me that it definatley was not normal and I needed to get it checked out... so she told my mom and  my mom made me a Dr. Apointment. I only have insurance in Utah because I am still on my parents insurance and their insurance is not covered in Cali so I had to do everything while I was in Utah for the holidays. So my trip to Utah was bitter sweet. While I was in Utah I had to have an EEG and MRI tests to test the brain activity in my brain and look for other issues. We still dont have the results back from my EEG, however we do have the results from the MRI back and it turns out they found a small anerysum on my brain... yup exciting right?! UGG! what the heck does that mean right? Well I have no idea? but I do know that it is small so thats good and the location of it is not that serious so that is good as well.. they do want to run more tests on me though so I will be back to Utah at the end of January to do more testing, once again bitter sweet.We still don't have the results back from the EEG though so that maybe a whole nother issue and story..

I am normal, I feel normal, I feel fine, I just have wierd things that happen to me every 2 or 3 months that last about 30 seconds thats all. I have lived a normal life like this for 3 years now and I have been fine.  I don't think its a big deal, but yet again I am probably living in denail. I have no idea what the future holds for me and what they are going to do about any of this, however I do know that with the lord anything is possible. After the trials and tribulations come the blessings, this too shall pass... I tell myself those things everyday and pray and search my scriptures everyday for comfort. I know I will get through this and everything will be ok, I guess if your reading this just say an extra prayer for me, thanks.

HOUSEWIVES OF OC!!!

This is what is written on Renaissance Clubsports Facebook wall today as well as in our company daily newsletter

 

Renaissance ClubSport Aliso Viejo As a heads-up, Bravo will be filming The Housewives of OC tonight in our 5:30pm Road Cycle class with Instructor Joan Wenson in Studio 2. For those planning to take class tonight, we appreciate your cooperation and understanding, in advance. Thank you!

 

Say what?? Yes, this is where I work and work out at....

 

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Blogging Does a Job Good!

Coolest most random thing, I blogged about where I work at which is at Renaissance Clubsport for one of the first blogs I did on here, and I guess Renaissance Clubsport's website got 30 hits because of my blog! My work also found out where they were getting the hits from and it said from my blog, wow! So now I am like a shining star at work and they love that my blog got them hits!

So here I am to blog about my work again and give them credit for being such a cool place to work and especially work out at. I am going to work out today for the second time when I get off just cause I can  and cause the gym is SUPER  nice. We have saunas/steamrooms in each of the locker rooms which I am in love with. I LOVE heat and I love to relax after I work out so the fact that I can just go sit in the sauna after I work out is pretty sweet to me, so I like to stay after work to take advantage of that as well. If you have not seen the website for it and or are not a fan of them on facebook you should take a gander of their website and then become their fan on facebook!

If most of the people that actually read my blog did not live in Utah like I know they do, I would recommend that you all join but since your all mostly 600 miles or more away I wont.. however for all of my local Cali readers join, join, join!!

Facebook link:
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/renaissanceclubsportav

Website link: http://www.renaissanceclubsport.com/aliso-viejo/home.do

Thanksgiving Weekend with the Fam

                                           

Christmas time at Disneyland

Here are the pics from Thanksgiving weekend that I did not post in my previous post. Since my parents were up from Utah for Thanksgiving and Wyatt was in town as well we did alot this weekend to celebrate the holiday season.
On saturday night after my parents left all the siblings went to L.A. to an outdoor mall called The Grove its a way sweet outdoor mall, where I have seen celebrities shop at in all the gossip magazines so I loved being there. It was decorated way cute for Christmas outside around all the shops they even had fake snow come out of the buildings and fall to the ground at random times of the night, and people there were estacic about the snow, they loved it and could not get enought of it.... I thought it was so wierd that they were so excited over  snow, if I was to get that excited over snow when I lived in Utah my life would have been a whole lot easier. It was also really cold outside that night, so it actually felt like it could have been real snow, which in a way kinda made me happy oddly enough.. I HATE COLD AND SNOW but I do love it for Christmas and it helped jump me into the christmas spirit since it has not felt like christmas or winter yet here in Cali.

We also went to Disneyland and it was also freezing cold at Disneyland which sucked, but of course it was still fun as well. Disneyland is decorated really cute for Christmas right now and they even changed the Small World ride and decorated the ride of the different countries with how each country celebrates Christmas as well as plays christmas music inside the ride, it was really cute.

Now all the siblings and parents are gone, and the fun ends until 3 MORE WEEKS when I come home for 10 DAYS for CHRISTMAS YAY!

BLACK FRIDAY! (WORK)

Twas the Morning after Thanksgiving and all through my gym not a creature was working out not even John or Kim.  In other words I am at work at 5 am the day after Thanksgiving and NOBODY IS HERE! They are all either still asleep (like I so wish i was) or they are shopping like mad people for Black Friday. litterally I have almost been at work for an hour now and I have checked 3 people in at my gym, 3! Why the heck am I here?! I wish I was asleep or atleast at H&M right now buying shirts and dresses at 50% off...

Now granted, towards the middle and or end of my shift it will probably start to get real busy here, after all it is the day after Turkey Day so everybody is going to want to work that turkey off, they are just sleeping in or shopping first.

I am just bitter that I have to be here because I technically have not had Thanksgiving yet.. my family and I are having Thanksgiving today as soon as I get off work. My parents, Kale, and Alex are here in Cali for Thanksgiving but we did not think Kale and Alex were going to be here until later today so we did not plan on having thanksgiving dinner until today, so I am just bitter I have to work today.....On the bright side the weather here has been amazing and I went running OUTSIDE  in the morning on THANKSGIVING and was too WARM, we also went to the beach yesterday and hung out to take pictures and the sky and beach  was GORGEOUS!

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p.s. I suck at taking pics here with my camera as well as uploading them as well as remembering to bring my camera to work with me so I can upload pics to my blog so no pics... sorry

THE CRAZIEST WEEK AND WEEKEND!

So this past week was hectic, so I am going to take this time to vent and complain a bit so please bare with me. first off I had to open at my work at 4:45 am 3 days in a row this week, which I am so not a fan of but whatever money is money. Second I tried to register my car in California because I live in a community where you have to have parking permits to park on the street at night and they will not give me a pass because I do not have California license plates.. lame. So I was going to try and get it registered however, it turns out because I got my car for sale by owner back in Utah when I bought it last April, I did not get charged sales tax so when the DMV near my house found out that, they told me it would be $630 bucks to register my car because the state of California was going to charge me taxes since I was not charged before when I bought the car! How ridiculously stupid and uncalled for is that?! So needless to say I walked out of their without registering it at all.. I was NOT going to pay $630 bucks to get my car registered in Cali just so I can park on my street for 2 nights of the week.. the other nights I can park in the garage because my bro-in-law Scott works graveyard shifts those nights so he does not need to park in the garage. As for the other nights I may or may not get a ticket and or towed... but so far so good and I still have my $630 bucks!

Then this weekend starting on Thursday I babysat my sister's bosses 5 little crazy kids all weekend. My sister's boss Doug and his wife went to Boston so I slept at their house and babysat their 5 kids. Thier was an 18 year old (was at scout camp most the weekend) a 14 year old girl, a 10 year old boy, a 5 year old boy and last but not least a almost 3 year old boy that is not potty trained... which equals fun, fun, fun!!
I have not really babysat since I was 14 and it was never an over night thing let alone a 4 day extravaganza.. the only kid I have really babsat hardcore is my baby neice Zoe, so this was a whole new adventure for me! Lets just say I had NO IDEA what I was getting myself into..These kids were CRAZY AND OUT OF CONTROL! It was probably the hardest thing I have done in a long time.. and it was great birth control! It definatley made me realize I am not ready for kids anytime soon... (besides the obvious reason ha)

Then last of all I had to speak in Sacrament at church on Sunday in my new singles ward here. I some how have dodged the bullet of ever having to speak in church since I started going to singles wards until now. I don't really mind public speaking though so I was not too nervous about it, I was more worried about the planning part of it because I am not one to wing it or procrastinate and since I had a crazy week last week I was freaking out about planning it and getting it done on time, but of course it all worked out and I feel like I did a pretty good job.

So there ya go that was the details of my crazy week, I have a pretty normal week this week so weeks like last week make me appreciate the normal weeks so much more!

This is how I felt this week stressed and unsure

HALLOWEEN AND FRIENDS!

So when I moved here my sister told me that it would probably take about 3 months for me to make friends and or feel like I have made it "In" with people here in Cali, and boy was she right on the money! I made friends right when I moved here, but it was not until just barley that I really started to feel like I belong and or found a "group" of friends that I could just go and hang out with. Slowly but surely I made it. Nobody can ever and will ever compare to my old crews of friends in Utah though but why not add to the group?

A bunch of us got together and went to a dance in Hunnington Beach for Halloween so that was fun. However, it ended up being a 35 and older singles dance and we had no idea, so that was definatley entertaining ha good thing there was a big group of us or else it would have been really wierd!

I bought an annual pass to Disneyland and I have actually been quite a few times recently. A bunch of people in my ward also have annual passes to disneyland so it has been fun to get a bunch of us together that have passes and go to disneyland at night which is awesome!